I want to be what I am
Diary 2007. 3. 15. 22:33
나에게도 다른 사람에게 보여줄수 없는 부분이 있어.
그걸 오픈해버리면 홀가분할것 같다는 생각도 가끔씩 들고는해.
하지만 내 주위 사람들이 그걸 감당할 수 있을까?
그리고 주위 사람들의 반응을 내가 과연 감당할 수 있을까?
그럴줄 알았다고 하는 사람도 있을것이고 놀라는 사람도 있을거고...
내가 정말 궁금한건 그럼에도 불구하고
주위 사람들이 '나'를 여전히 변함없이 '나'로 봐줄것인가 하는거지.
가끔씩 그게 너무 버겁다.
Mariah Carey - Looking In
You look at me and see the girl
Who lives inside the golden world
But don't believe
That's all there is to see
You'll never know the real me
She smiles through a thousand tears
And harbours adolescent fears
She dreams of all
That she can never be
She wades in insecurity
And hides herself inside of me
Don't say she takes it all for granted
I'm well aware of all I have
Don't think that I am disenchanted
Please understand
It seems as though I've always been
Somebody outside looking in
Well, here I am for all of them to bleed
But they can't take my heart from me
And they can't bring me to my knees
They'll never know the real me